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I’m all alone and don’t have a costume to wear I fucking love Halloween it’s the one day a year that I can feel normal in public and I’m too much of a loser to have any friends to go out with but yea that’s where I’m at my day today has sucked and I hate that cause It’s my favorite day of the entire year!! God I need friends and a social life soo bad but for now I’ll just sit here at home and be a loser…… Read more

Since I’ve been on here well I take that back I’ve been on here once a day but just to clear my messages but I’m back on here right now cause I needed to do an update on here anyways I’m starting to get fairly hot actually. I’ve still got issues both physically and mentally or spiritually lol but they are slowly working themselves out my body is changing into a female shape my booty is growing as are my tits god they are growing like weeds they hurt all the time and stuff but I’m just about to go up to a c cup bra next time I buy a bra cause my boobies are starting to lift the bottom up on my… Read more

It’s been a minute since I’ve been on here with enough time and motivation to post but yea I used to be able to get on here and write what I want but that times long gone lol oh well and oh yea I’m officially crazy and im tired of assholes just food for thought don’t be an asshole to me or anyone in my presence unless you want me to hate you lol and no t im not talking about you lol just trying to stamp out the fires before they get huge lmao im just tired and on here for the first time this week really to contemplate taking over the world BWAHAHAHA lmao no seriously I’m actually just tired an… Read more

Prove jm fake lol well good luck id love to see your proof and ill raise you with tons of more pictures and vids of me ill even very occasionally video call you but i hate video calls so dont ask too often or ill just say fuck you!!! I don’t care if you think I’m fake because I don’t need your gd validation lmao it’s really funny I’ve even talked on the phone with this person before not video chat but yea that’s fine oh well I can’t make everyone believe me kindve makes me wonder what I can get away with like hmm I think ima make a quiz section on here once a week and give yall some stimulatio… Read more

I feel sick I’m only on here right now writing about this “situation” cause I have literally no friends of anybody I can talk to in my life I won’t be able to get to far into the”situation” cause of well cause the guy definitely will read this post but it’s a situation that I feel like I’m gonna explode if I don’t get off my chest so…here we go… I met a guy on here about a year and some change ago who’s sweet and he’s a good man honestly and he’s claims to care about me and stuff but he didn’t tell me he was married until about 3weeks ago which yea duh Clarissa be smarter than that yea well yo… Read more

I realize my posts lately have been extremely needy and kindve annoying and I’m sorry…however this one’s not gonna be any better yea I realize it’s all my doing I get that which is one of the reasons i HATE me soo much! I wish I wasn’t insane I really wish I could be normal ish at least but I’m not iunno why im so insane I really wish I could be a normal girl for just 15 minutes of my life I know that’s too much to ask but god I need soo many things right now and I can’t or won’t, yea won't, do anything to help myself which is why I really need to just die lmao yes I’m back here, again I just… Read more

AF and I wish I could say I didn’t know why but I do and no little diary I won’t talk about it here fuck my job fuck my lack of money and fuck my life lol yes it’s been one of those days today wasn’t really that bad but I seriously think I’m PMSing. I feel like I’m seriously about to start ovulating lmao and it’s sucks cause I’m no longer the man I once was I look up to that man now I’m physically weak, mentally unstable, and a financial burden on everyone in my life I’m just feeling really unhappy probably cause the only thing I want is beauty and to be loved and desired but I’m neither of th… Read more

Guys who don’t text me but like once a month or even every two or three months thinking I owe them something cause I talked to them one time a few months back lol I’ve had like 6 of you mofos recently contact me talking like I’m your long lost gf lol and spoiler I’m not if you wanted me you should’ve put in the work to get me lol but since you didn’t I’ll stick to the one who does lol it’s like huh yea I don’t remember talking to you a few months ago (cause of my well documented memory issues) so no I won’t drive 4 hours to meet you for one night of sex like really for 10-15 mins of sex lol it… Read more

Soo where to start little diary well shit I can’t really talk about what I need so desperately to talk about soo …how’s the weather in little diary land?? sometimes I wish soo absolutely that I was a natural born female they probably still have to deal with this shit…actually I know they’ve gotta deal with this shit but it seems to me it would maybe be a little easier if I’d had estrogen a part of me for my enitire life but all I can control is the future and my futures already looking bleak and strangely colorless I don’t know what I’m gonna do now I wasn’t prepared for this shit that flutter… Read more

Guys wanting me to fuck them I don’t get it I’ve got like 100 of yall mofos in my inbox begging me to fuck them I’m 200% bottom so no I won’t put it in you and “what that dick do?” —-bitch not a fucking thing it stays to itself over there and I would possibly, just maybe, allow you to put your mouth on it but that’s only until I inevitably get ticklish and kick you the fuck off of it …like seriously kick you the fuck off of it lol I’m not into even having that little fucker in the first place if it were up to me I’d be free of that shitty dysphoria capital completely and his two tiny friends s… Read more

I ate a hot meal first time in days I even ate anything thanks to a guy on here actually he’s fucking amazing a real dream come true he actually likes me and cares about me eating little diary I’m really happy tonight I was having a bad night until he came in like a knight in shining armor and made me soo happy so I’m happy for once and full for the first time in weeks lol I was soo hangry earlier like I wasn’t happy now I am so thanks T you know I love you!! Anyways originally this would’ve been a depressing post but I’m not depressed cause I’m full!! My hairs soo gd beautiful it hurts lol go… Read more

lol yes it’s that time to go up a cup size I’m a 36-38/b right now but I really need to go to a c so likely a 36 c would fit me well now I think at least lol I know my boobys are getting fucking huge right now lol they are getting soo nice I’m no longer jelly of other girls chests mine is getting there very quickly lol and my waist is shrinking too and my booty and thighs are growing which is the main thing I’m so happy with. My body’s filling out nicely and I’m getting kindve pretty even without makeup I feel normally pretty good about how attractive I am becoming I’m not there yet but I soon… Read more

So I heard an old rock song from my highschool/college days that made me start crying and I started rediscovering my past through music and I had been wavering on my decisions lately but after hearing that song I dove head first into my favorite rock songs from my past and I’m more content and happy than ever in my life that’s how I know I’m on the right path. I’m really crazy I know little diary but I’m happy and after my rediscovery I’m more content with my decisions than ever I’m truely happy for once in my life for the first time ever in my existence I’m actually really ready for my future… Read more

Today I got some important things done I got my eyebrow and nose pierced lol and my eye brow didn’t hurt like at all I was talking when he did it and it was simple quick and no pain lol I literally had to ask him if he’d already don’t it it just felt weird at first .now my nose fucking sucked lol my nose fucking hurt for like 20 minutes and brought tears to my eye…singular lol on the nostril side … that one I’m glad it was quick too but it honestly wasn’t horrible not tramp stamp excruciating like 4 hours of fuck my life like the pond tattoo on my leg or the bows on the backs of my thighs lol… Read more

So if your not wanting to hear me bitch then I suggest taking the next exit asap but yea I talked to a guy we will call asshole 1 or a1 for short and anyways he said some hurtful shit to me but he wasn’t necessarily wrong in his assessment but I digress from that topic he did however make me realize something I need to stop playing both genders and pick a side ( in an incredibly asshole way that he explained it) but he’s right unfortunately it’s not safe for me where I live to just fem out specially being this tall and ugly lol but if I’ve gotta chose then it’s not male cause im NOT a man so I… Read more

Since my last post I’m crazy, I guess reading my posts that was when my x bf texted me randomly (lol idve sworn on a stack of bibles that was like day before yesterday) and I’m not going to beat a dead horse with more of that shit but it was comical it’s like dude if you wanted me you should’ve tried to keep me instead of giving me the easiest breakup of my entire life lol and I didn’t cheat or anything ….ok little diary you got me yes I cheated but not until I’d decided that I was going to break up with him the next time I talked to him so like 32 days or something like that I’d have to look… Read more

I had this whole post about my x texting me randomly (wanting booty no doubt) written up and ready to post but then I was finishing it and thought why tf would I give him the stage when I don’t really give a flying fuck about him lol just know little diary there was an ewwww moment earlier and I like the way I handled it lol ok so that’s the title done now and there’s all this white space to occupy with black lettering lol I can’t wait for my pool to pay me I need it soon too or I’ll be fucked kindve at least no matter what I’ll ALWAYS be here so might as well enjoy my moments here…anyways I’m… Read more

I’m happy I made it here thought for sure I’d be dead or a hooker or both by now lol so yay! Party!!! But while that sounds fun it’ll have to wait until I get my shit together sometime around post 250 lol yea thanks for all my fans of which I know there are maybe 3 of lmao and fuck the rest of you lmao no I’m joking but some of you are pretty cool though so to you special few I salute you lol anyways yes I’m joking of course I love everybody even the people who don’t love me lol btw little diary I am gonna next some cash soon to get some stuff mostly clothes preferably fem stuff and and makeup… Read more

Yay!! back to being a broke girly… unfortunately I was just sick yesterday and now I cant afford to even eat whataburger again for a couple weeks lol which wouldn’t really be an issue if I had any food at my house currently lol because I was sick yesterday mid morning to about Friday mid night or Saturday early morning I haven’t gotten any money from anywhere recently coming in so I need to make some shit happen soon so I can get my dog some gd flea medication lol and me some inexpensive clothes like 30-40 dollars worth of shit from the closest goodwill or something of the type I’m down to jus… Read more

I came down with what felt to me like Covid two days ago and if it was Covid it lasted the same amount of time about a day and a half. But anyways I’m better now after not being able to keep anything down for about a day which yay me for losing weight lmao I’ve still got kindve a sore throat right now I’m able to smoke again for the first time in days lol… Read more