About

About be, well, here I go.

I’m a man who considers himself straight. I’ve always been with girls in my relations, and I’m attracted to the female body. I started to be curios about trans porn 13 years ago, when it started to get popular on porn sites. To see a female body with a cock kind of aroused me in that time. Time passed and about 8 years ago, I discovered the sissy porn world. In the beginning, my fantasy was to be the one who was fucking the sissy gurls. I’ve always been dominant in all my relations after all. Even today, my girlfriend loves to be dominated in bed, and to be fair, I like that too. But it’s like after all those years to dominate in bed, I’m starting to wonder how it would feel to be the dominated. So gradually, the fantasy of fucking a sissy became the fantasy of to be fucked like a sissy. I started to wear panties, then lingerie.

The feeling that it procures me is hard to explain. I think that doing it in secret is for something. Watching sissy hypno videos made me climb more steps. I bought a chastity cage and a dildo.

I even learn how to get a sissygasm. The first time I had one, I was kind of proud of myself. But then, comes the shame, the man thing that hits. I feel a bit stupid, wearing lingerie and my cage. But after some time, the urge comes again, and it is an infernal circle.

All this made me question myself about my sexual orientation. I wanted to be honest to myself. So I came to this conclusion. I consider myself a straight man. I am naturally attracted to women, no matter what but, also, I’m attracted to the penis, no matter who has it. When I fantasy about being a sissy, I don’t see myself kiss another man. To be honest, it even turns me off. But I could suck him and let him fuck me, because I’m attracted to his penis only. In the same way, I could kiss a trans woman or even a feminine sissy, because I’m attracted to woman.

So I have this duality in me. The dominant and the one who wants to be dominated. I like them both. And I have the feeling that since I have been honest with myself, my body is sync with my mood. For example, I have noticed that when I am in the dominant mood, my erected cock is pretty huge. But when the sissy urge comes, it is like if my cock ‘’shrinks’’ some how and it becomes really small.

Making this account is a step to accept the other part of me. Therefore, I have 2 Xhamster accounts. One for each duality.

This ends my summary. I hope it was clear. It was the first time I used words to describe my sexuality.

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