Beyond Bound-aries

I don't know why I made this. I suppose on a symbolic level it expresses how I feel ... contained right now. I love my job, but it prevents me from being more open about my sexuality...about exhibiting myself which is a great turn on. As I have written elsewhere I really get off on the chance of getting caught being sexual, or even just exposed. Many of my dares for myself toy with public interaction.

I guess it also darkly suggests that I want someone to rescue me from my legitimate, and sensible reasons for being cautious. It isn't something I want realized by someone else. Instead it is plea to myself let who I am free. To let go by being controlled. Or in another way, to surrender. I have enjoyed bdsm at times through out my life. I don't always like it but for what I was expressing in this vid, I find it adds clarity for me.

To be perfectly honest, specifically this scene is a unrealized fantasy for me. I already know that it is only a matter of time before I enjoy this...this reduction of being into a euphoric state. Its like my pulse is ticking off the seconds of a countdown to the time it happens. From feminist to primal, public, cock-pleasing...hole. See, these are the uncomfortable things you can't say out loud. At least not as yourself. But here, as the sloppylooseslut I expose them...