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    I'm so confused..

    I didn't it again.

    I texted Arun last night. I shouldn't have. But now I'm so confused.

    I miss him. I miss what we had. I can't have him back in NY life again. But at the same time I don't want to throw away what we had.

    I met someone again this morning. I shouldn't have. I fear I. Losing control again.

    Do I need arun back? Is that a way of getting what I need and staying safe? I am well aware of the dangers of meeting people on here I don't know. I made a mistake.

    I know it was wrong and dangerous and can't keep doing that.

    Will bringing arun back into my life be a safe option?
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    6 years ago
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    L
    Hey Mrs K, let's chat. It's been a while darling, let's talk things over.
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    _Mrs_K
    Thanks guys. Alot of good advice on here. Xx
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    H
    I think you need to take a few steps back from life... There is clearly an issue in your married/home life... You married young, you're still young, you're getting a new sense of emotions and thrills from here and the positive comments you're receiving make you feel more alive with each post of a photo or a blog....Then, reality kicks back in and the constant let downs of your hubby (and to be honest who knows what other issues) you become lonely far too often because of his work you begin to enjoy yourself and it goes too far, reality kicks in again and the circle begins again full of regret.... What do you want in life? Do you meet people off here for company? For sex? I hope you stay safe more than anything, you're a lovely woman, i'd the love the chance to chat properly but I know thats a long shot to happen. Just think of the bigger picture WHAT IS BEST FOR YOU xxx 
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    wiedlhowser
    Be safe swetheart
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    1daymayb
    You have some caring friends trying to give real and heartfelt adice below.. You want a safety net, what I hear there is that your life is not making you happy. Unfortunately being adults we have to be responsible for our own happiness. Finding solace in the arms of another, whether it is a long term or short term thing, nearly always ends badly. The thrill of being adored on here may make you feel better for small periods of time, bt ultimately won't fix anything. Only you and your husband can fix thigns between you, even if that ultimately leads to you seperating. You need to find a way to tell him how unhappy you are with the way the two of you are interacting (without saying it's his fault because that will put his back up) and that you want to work things out. Hope you find happiness soon x
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    oxonman
    You clearly feel very different before you meet someone than afterwards , guilt ?
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    scotlandmyhome
    plenty of good advise below that I'm sure will be helpful. it just shows there are some very nice people on xhamster
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    1977YoungPussyLover
    Don't do anything just now, you may regret it xx
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    _Mrs_K
    Yes I think your are right. Xx
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    _Mrs_K
    to TheViper_NN : Thanks . x
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    TheViper_NN
    I feel for you :frowning: Sorry you're in a situation which isn't just some fun. Must be so difficult for you. Try and stay strong Mrs K.
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    _Mrs_K
    to G1rthy : Yes. I know. Thanks x
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    naathh
    you deserve the best for YOU ! so do what's you want ! and needs !
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    _Mrs_K
    to yeahitis : That makes sense x
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    _Mrs_K
    to geofers1 : You could be right x
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    yeahitis
    He is a safety net to keep falling into, and that can be an easy thing to do. But use what you've learnt from him and that situation to decide what you want. Do you want to meet people off here? Maybe so, have you had a bad experience from here, I don't know, but with all good can come bad. Just think about what you need and why your doing what your doing, and decide a path from there. Think about all parties concerned, and how it could backfire, but how it could lead to positive outcomes for the situation. There are some! Honest!
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    G
    In all honesty you should have a litte rest from here and calm down. It's probably not what you want to hear , BUT you have said you love your hubby, so go get him girl xxxx
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    rajj08
    to _Mrs_K : In that case do what feels right with you... it seems you need pleasure, comfort, discreteness, joy and a release for the torture...Your happiness rests in your hands
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    to _Mrs_K : Seems to me that having an affair with a family member is can not be seen as a safety net. You're a grown up, intelligent woman, you know there's no way that it ends well. Sorry, you may not want to hear that, hope you take my comments in the way they're intended, no judgement just honest opinion.

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    _Mrs_K
    to rajj08 : Better? Anything is better than now x
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    _Mrs_K
    to G1rthy : Thanks. I just don't know what I want. I need some safety net.
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    Hello, we've not spoken and I've only skim read some of your posts.. But I do find you interesting so for what it's worth...
    Arun is far from the 'safe option' there appears to be a family connection and he's a lot younger, so if you ever get found out you'll be faced with huge amount of judgement. You should also stop texting him, it's not fair on the poor lad.
    You're probably better off meeting people from here as long as you don't put yourself in unneccessarily risky situations. Just be honest and keep your fuckboy setting on high alert, you'll be fine.
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    Justaguy2016
    Seems you are looking for something my angel, maybe Arun would be too much, you would want him far to much, end up leaving hubby, maybe instead of meeting random guys on here, you need to find someone you could see on a regular basis, give you a guy you can trust & give you a safe & secure release of your tension....A xx
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    rajj08
    Will it make anything better? What happens when your mind starts to ponder elsewhere once arun and your husband arent around?Personally its make more sense for you to do what you feel most comfortable with... meet who you want and keep a smile on your face
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