I'm so confused..
I didn't it again.
I texted Arun last night. I shouldn't have. But now I'm so confused.
I miss him. I miss what we had. I can't have him back in NY life again. But at the same time I don't want to throw away what we had.
I met someone again this morning. I shouldn't have. I fear I. Losing control again.
Do I need arun back? Is that a way of getting what I need and staying safe? I am well aware of the dangers of meeting people on here I don't know. I made a mistake.
I know it was wrong and dangerous and can't keep doing that.
Will bringing arun back into my life be a safe option?
I texted Arun last night. I shouldn't have. But now I'm so confused.
I miss him. I miss what we had. I can't have him back in NY life again. But at the same time I don't want to throw away what we had.
I met someone again this morning. I shouldn't have. I fear I. Losing control again.
Do I need arun back? Is that a way of getting what I need and staying safe? I am well aware of the dangers of meeting people on here I don't know. I made a mistake.
I know it was wrong and dangerous and can't keep doing that.
Will bringing arun back into my life be a safe option?
6 years ago
Arun is far from the 'safe option' there appears to be a family connection and he's a lot younger, so if you ever get found out you'll be faced with huge amount of judgement. You should also stop texting him, it's not fair on the poor lad.
You're probably better off meeting people from here as long as you don't put yourself in unneccessarily risky situations. Just be honest and keep your fuckboy setting on high alert, you'll be fine.