I finally let it happen explained.....

this is just a quick explanation of what i just let happen.....if you have ready any of my prior :stuff", you would know that , A...I am very curious about exploring "bi" sex......and B, I love massage.....seem's like such a great way to be naked, vulnerable and touched.....
I am very drawn to using massage as an innocent way to explore being with a guy, or a T gurl.....
So here is what i let happen......i let part, not all , of a cock penetrate my ass.....
Went back to a male massage that i found on Craigslist...I had been to others, or another anyway.....loved it, but the guy had a little dick , and it really didn't get hard at all....and the experience left me hoping for more.....ie....fit guy, big cock, and more aggressive with it ( his big cock )....
So here i am .....naked, and face down getting a massage from and younger ( mid 20's ) guy....the massage started with him in loose gym pants and a wife beater....but it didn't take long until i saw through the "hole" in the massage table that his gym pants were now off....cool...:).....as he massaged my upper back and neck his cock would be resting against me....and it was getting very firm....and to be honest...if he would have turned me head and stuck his rod in my mouth....i would have loved it.....:)
He moved to my lower back and upper thigh's and kept up the massage...applying plenty of oil, especially to my asshole....a finger seemed to pass over my ass frequently , and i am sure by my reaction,he knew i was enjoying it.....
Next thing i know and he is up on the table massaging my upper back...which had his cock now all over my ass and balls...it was so stimulating that i'm sure he could feel my cock stiffening....soon i noticed his cock zeroing in on the target....and as it did, i pushed back and relaxed as much as i could.....and it happened....his fat cock head went in past the "ring"....it hurt like hell, but i let him go a little deeper, , and let him pump at me a couple of times before i tensed up and his dick popped back out.....it was then that a turned on my side and finished him with my hands and let him shoot all over my face and in my mouth...he had my cock in his hand i soon realized and bent down for a quick suck, then a hand finish....the massage finished up in relative quiet...but there was nothing quiet in my head.....i want more.....