The truth

i get off on how much i don't get women off, or at least the idea of that

so any and all forms of complete debasement and removal of all male sexual value are the manifestations of this kink

but ultimately, it revolves around what makes me feel inadequate as a man wanting to please a woman

and the reality is that, while i'm ostensibly here to engage in that purpose, what it translates to is me delving into transgender territory and sexual attraction towards males

i wouldn't ever expect a woman to really wholly be into what reflections of me are represented here

it's not realistic. but i do want men to read this and be into me and talk to me and get off to me

and see me as a woman

"how can i please you if i would rather be one of you?"