About Me
The most common question I get asked after someone has read my profile is WHY? Why would anyone want to be treated in this way? The answer to this question is complex and cannot be explained in just a few words. Most people who have never experienced anything other than a normal (vanilla) relationship will find it hard to understand this complicated lifestyle choice. People are naturally either Dominant or submissive in their everyday life, Leaders or followers, I have always found that I prefer to follow and have decisions made for me (naturally submissive).
Being submissive comes with things that appeal greatly to me: guidelines, rules, structure etc. I have a need for limitations and order that I cannot place on myself. For these things, for this completeness, an outside force is required, someone to enforce these things, and bring about repercussions if the boundaries placed down are crossed. I have found the act of submitting to be an enriching experience. When I am forced to go beyond the bounds of personal comfort and dignity to satisfy one that I willingly call Mistress I feel free and extremely uplifted. Through submission, I can cast off the cares of normal life for a time, drop all my barriers and armour and relinquish control to someone else.
I not only WANT to be submissive, Dominated and Owned, I NEED to be submissive, and there is a world of difference between those two words. I need to be submissive, because, it is within me to be so. Living as a free, un-owned person is incompatible with a submissive’s mentality, entirely un-fulfilling, and leaves me devoid of something that I need to feel content. Deeply seated in my psyche is a need to be controlled, degraded, humiliated and serve women. A well-rooted drive to please them, to do anything to be found pleasing by them, forces me to my knees before women, even when I would rather not.
My journey to where I am now was not easy. The road I took had many potholes, ups and downs, high points and heartbreaks. Some of my experiences along the way were a little extreme and unusual, others gratefully erotic and satisfying. All however helped me understand my need and desire to submit and lead to my decision that this is where I wanted to be.
My submissive journey began many years ago whilst still married and in a vanilla relationship. Unfortunately my penis is very small and prone to premature ejaculation and my wife at the time (now ex wife) soon got very sexually frustrated. For a long time I tried to compensate with lots of oral stimulation and although I got extremely proficient at it, it still wasn’t enough for her and she got bored of sex with me completely. This was the beginning of the end for my sexual activities as a man. My ex had heard through a friend about cuckolding and after researching the subject she asked if I would be prepared for her to take a lover to satisfy her sexual needs. Rather than lose her I agreed and soon after it happened.... My deepest desires to submit became a reality.
I will not bore you with my life story, only inform you that from the first time my (ex) wife took a lover, my normal life was over and my life of submission began, progressing over six years from husband to cuckold husband to cuckold humiliation (forced bi, oral servant, cleanup slave, toilet etc) to Chastity slave (complete sexual denial) to full Domestic and Sexual house slave, to sissy slave and slut.
I no longer have the inclination for a normal relationship, I am now content with remaining seperated from the heavy burden that relationships bring. My sexual need for release is now a thing of the past but my sexual desires and adoration for the scent and taste of a woman are stronger than ever. I have remained in chastity and full sexual denial for nearly 2 years which has not only made my penis incapable of erection but has increased my desire to serve.
If truth be told I would be content without any social life and happy to become an object to be used by women when needed, I like the feeling of being used then cast aside when finished with. No need for idle chit chat, No reason for upsets, uneasy moments, lies or deceptions.
Being submissive comes with things that appeal greatly to me: guidelines, rules, structure etc. I have a need for limitations and order that I cannot place on myself. For these things, for this completeness, an outside force is required, someone to enforce these things, and bring about repercussions if the boundaries placed down are crossed. I have found the act of submitting to be an enriching experience. When I am forced to go beyond the bounds of personal comfort and dignity to satisfy one that I willingly call Mistress I feel free and extremely uplifted. Through submission, I can cast off the cares of normal life for a time, drop all my barriers and armour and relinquish control to someone else.
I not only WANT to be submissive, Dominated and Owned, I NEED to be submissive, and there is a world of difference between those two words. I need to be submissive, because, it is within me to be so. Living as a free, un-owned person is incompatible with a submissive’s mentality, entirely un-fulfilling, and leaves me devoid of something that I need to feel content. Deeply seated in my psyche is a need to be controlled, degraded, humiliated and serve women. A well-rooted drive to please them, to do anything to be found pleasing by them, forces me to my knees before women, even when I would rather not.
My journey to where I am now was not easy. The road I took had many potholes, ups and downs, high points and heartbreaks. Some of my experiences along the way were a little extreme and unusual, others gratefully erotic and satisfying. All however helped me understand my need and desire to submit and lead to my decision that this is where I wanted to be.
My submissive journey began many years ago whilst still married and in a vanilla relationship. Unfortunately my penis is very small and prone to premature ejaculation and my wife at the time (now ex wife) soon got very sexually frustrated. For a long time I tried to compensate with lots of oral stimulation and although I got extremely proficient at it, it still wasn’t enough for her and she got bored of sex with me completely. This was the beginning of the end for my sexual activities as a man. My ex had heard through a friend about cuckolding and after researching the subject she asked if I would be prepared for her to take a lover to satisfy her sexual needs. Rather than lose her I agreed and soon after it happened.... My deepest desires to submit became a reality.
I will not bore you with my life story, only inform you that from the first time my (ex) wife took a lover, my normal life was over and my life of submission began, progressing over six years from husband to cuckold husband to cuckold humiliation (forced bi, oral servant, cleanup slave, toilet etc) to Chastity slave (complete sexual denial) to full Domestic and Sexual house slave, to sissy slave and slut.
I no longer have the inclination for a normal relationship, I am now content with remaining seperated from the heavy burden that relationships bring. My sexual need for release is now a thing of the past but my sexual desires and adoration for the scent and taste of a woman are stronger than ever. I have remained in chastity and full sexual denial for nearly 2 years which has not only made my penis incapable of erection but has increased my desire to serve.
If truth be told I would be content without any social life and happy to become an object to be used by women when needed, I like the feeling of being used then cast aside when finished with. No need for idle chit chat, No reason for upsets, uneasy moments, lies or deceptions.
13 years ago
