Why am i fucked in the head???

i had a girlfriend in 1989 i went in the army sent to germany JUNE 1989 our plans where to marry in OCT.1989 the guys tried to get me to go to frankfurt to the whore houses but i didn't wana cheat on her.. i told them this but they didn't care .... a few weeks went by and they accused me of being a queer. they told me that we're going to a swingers party if i didn't go they'll make my time in the army hell, so i went got drunk found myself nude and tied to saw horses and was getting fucked by men and women with strap-ons and forced to swallow and suck this went on from JUNE 1989 to FEB.1990 was discharge in MARCH 1990 with no benefits gi bill va loan nothing they sent my girlfriend polaroids and my life sucks think about suicide every day...

Published by newfreek553

1 year ago

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newfreek553 Publisher 4 months ago

to Pepper111111 : I wanna do it here

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Pepper111111 4 months ago

Go back to germany and do it all again

newfreek553 Publisher 6 months ago

to bob1809 : yeah i know thats why i'm still here

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bob1809 6 months ago

Suicide, a permenant solution to a temporary problem. Think and then think again!

NimbleSpring8 8 months ago

Put it behind you. I was in the Navy.

niceblackcream 9 months ago

to DavieLeigh : I'm glad to know that you found my words helpful. If staying active helps you, cool. After all these years, obviously that works for you. Give yourself credit for how much hell you have survived. 👍🏽

A wise man once said, "If you want to lift yourself up, lift up someone else." Though I've never consciously employed this as a strategy against depression, in retrospect I see that trying to inspire young people around me with reasons to believe in themselves more than anything else has never failed to infuse my life with HOPE and JOY. It has always felt good to do this, so I've continued to do it. It seems a bit uncanny that doing this has empowered me so much, because in my mind it's never been about me.

One suggestion I have for anyone struggling with depression (IN ADDITION TO getting professional mental health help) is find something meaningful to dedicate yourself to.

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DavieLeigh 9 months ago

to niceblackcream : that was awesome help. I've been a paraplegic for 26 years. Nothing works bellow the waist. I have to stay active or I would get depressed too.

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jojosmallone 10 months ago

dont think of suicide accept your place as a submissive sissy. Find a few good Dominate Alpha Males to serve and service and find a good aggressive woman that wants a cuckold husband

newfreek553 Publisher 1 year ago

to jimbobnmo : thank you stay safe

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jimbobnmo 1 year ago

Sorry to hear that.. It's bad when terrible people come along and somehow get in to innocent decent peoples lifes.. I had sssomething similar happen to me but they tried killing me and then from all the time it took to see them off to that final place was years.. I got bad P.T.S.D. from the kidnapping and torture.. Im way better but that was in 98 .. Oh and your Very Welcome to the invite my NEW FRIEND

niceblackcream 1 year ago

to newfreek553 : You're more than welcome. Brightest blessings to you always. 😎

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newfreek553 Publisher 1 year ago

to niceblackcream : i know thank you for your help and all YOU HAVE A SAFE WONDERFUL DAY AND WEEK

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niceblackcream 1 year ago

You were made to feel worthless simply because you didn't want to run with the crowd. But, you have always been a man WORTHY OF RESPECT! Try to put all the shit behind you. Thoughts about suicide is one symptom of depression. I highly recommend getting professional mental health help. The new 3-digit phone number for the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is 988 or call 1-800-273-TALK (8255), 24/7.