Finding a fuck!
Ok so this is kind of a vent / asking for advice from anyone who stumbled across this, with a little sprinkle of back stroy!
So for a long, long time I've been into cross dressing, almost 20 years! During this time I have evolved several times.
In the early days it was just about wearing panties and getting of at looking at trans/shemale content, definitely not gay tho!
Next was taking the step to buy a couple of butt plugs to have in while wearing parties and getting of the above content, still definitely not gay though.
Then came the dildos, ah the dildos. Each one getting bigger and longer to feel better and better all while again wearing panties and watching the same porn. Still not gay right!?
Then finally and this all happened very fast! It initially started when I found a sissy Hypno video. Possibly hypnocyper and from that point everything changed!
Within a matter of weeks I was only watching Hypno and I could feel myself changing, I was spending more time using my dildos than jerking off, I even brought a cage to stop my self from being able to so I could focus on fucking myself senseless.
Never before had I had the thoughts of getting fucked by an actual man but I could be feel the urge creeping in. It started quietly in the back of my mind ' I wonder what it would feel, but nah u ain't gay' to now, maybe if I could meet a cute sissy to have some fun with.
After about a year of this and with no actual cock having been consumed I kinda just want to find a big dick to suck and fuck me.
Before I used to consume porn for fun now I genuinely wish I was the girl getting fucked. Even the occasional gay porn video makes its way into my evening of playing.
So now for the rant.
Why the fuck is it so hard to find someone to fuck me. I was away in other area and downloaded grinder but no one was biting. Plenty of messages but no real response. The ones that did were just cock teasing.
Honestly does no one want a nice virgin asshole to fuck.
Like I have said. I don't actually see myself as gay or bi but I'm kinda thinking would I regret it on my death bed having not at least tried it!
So any advice of how to actually find a fuck safety would be very, very gratefully received.
Anyway off to have a Hypno fueled dildo frenzy fuck session....all on my own.
If u made it this far thanks for taking the time to read it. If your in the same or similar way hit me up maybe we can work away out of our situation!
So for a long, long time I've been into cross dressing, almost 20 years! During this time I have evolved several times.
In the early days it was just about wearing panties and getting of at looking at trans/shemale content, definitely not gay tho!
Next was taking the step to buy a couple of butt plugs to have in while wearing parties and getting of the above content, still definitely not gay though.
Then came the dildos, ah the dildos. Each one getting bigger and longer to feel better and better all while again wearing panties and watching the same porn. Still not gay right!?
Then finally and this all happened very fast! It initially started when I found a sissy Hypno video. Possibly hypnocyper and from that point everything changed!
Within a matter of weeks I was only watching Hypno and I could feel myself changing, I was spending more time using my dildos than jerking off, I even brought a cage to stop my self from being able to so I could focus on fucking myself senseless.
Never before had I had the thoughts of getting fucked by an actual man but I could be feel the urge creeping in. It started quietly in the back of my mind ' I wonder what it would feel, but nah u ain't gay' to now, maybe if I could meet a cute sissy to have some fun with.
After about a year of this and with no actual cock having been consumed I kinda just want to find a big dick to suck and fuck me.
Before I used to consume porn for fun now I genuinely wish I was the girl getting fucked. Even the occasional gay porn video makes its way into my evening of playing.
So now for the rant.
Why the fuck is it so hard to find someone to fuck me. I was away in other area and downloaded grinder but no one was biting. Plenty of messages but no real response. The ones that did were just cock teasing.
Honestly does no one want a nice virgin asshole to fuck.
Like I have said. I don't actually see myself as gay or bi but I'm kinda thinking would I regret it on my death bed having not at least tried it!
So any advice of how to actually find a fuck safety would be very, very gratefully received.
Anyway off to have a Hypno fueled dildo frenzy fuck session....all on my own.
If u made it this far thanks for taking the time to read it. If your in the same or similar way hit me up maybe we can work away out of our situation!
2 years ago