I am experiencing a remarkable sexual journey
I am presently experiencing a remarkable sexual spiritual journey, that is exposing me and my body, mind, and spirit, to understanding who I am, and where I am going sexually in the future. I love who I am, I love many of you, and I am looking forward with enthusiasm to meeting some of you to live out fantasies, fetishes, and perversions. As I go through my journey, I have discovered how much I love both men and women, and most things that you all are involved in, such as cross-dressing, being she male, loving same-sex partners, playing with toys, engaging in perverted thoughts, etc. My travels are bringing me to places I never expected to look forward to and involve myself in, and definitely my limits are fewer and farther between as I relish and new thoughts and emotions and feelings about what I want and need to experience sexually.
I considered myself straight for most of my life. Up until about five years ago, my main focus sexually was on experiences with women. I was fairly fortunate as a young man to have been relatively attractive, and I definitely had my share of some absolutely beautiful women, and my memories are quite fond, and I have come to totally appreciate the female body, the female mind, and the female spirit. As so much as changed throughout my lifetime, I am thrilled to see women so confident, so open, so much more aggressive in their pursuits, whether sexually, career oriented, and I so look forward to interacting on a mindful, intense, and erotic way that surpasses anything I have ever done before, let alone thought of doing let alone wanted to do. Or even expected to do.
I have stories and blogs on this website that describe things about me that have happened over the course of maybe 5 to 8 years. During that time I discovered very deeply my bisexuality, that I love cross-dressing, that I love men and men’s bodies, that I love the penis and testicles, and most unexpectedly I love men’s asses. I never thought I would have sex with men in any way shape or form. I find it now not only acceptable, but truly an imperative to engage in further. I say that because about five years ago I started giving oral sex to men, and I received some to, but I was mostly on a path of wanting to pleasure man. That is a big part of who I am right now, I want to pleasure other people in so many ways. I love performing oral on both men and women, I want to experience licking women’s and men’s ass holes, I want to be talked in the ass, and I want to live out fantasies, fetishes, kinks and perversions just like anybody else.
I am not here for any reason other than I am pursuing meeting clean, decent people for either friendship and/or sexual relations. I am a very clean, warm, gentle bisexual male, I am very thoughtful and I am considered and empathic. As I love people’s bodies, whether with my hands, fingers, lips, tongue, mouth and throat, or even with my penis, I am always in tune with peoples moans, movements, body postures, etc. What I find truly erotic is the fact that I am a male and I am enjoying making love with other men. That puts me in a situation, since I know how things feel as a male sexually, I know may be more fully how to love of man’s bodies, especially with my mouth, then others and women might know how to do. It is my utmost desire and obligation to pleasure others, and I will not be satisfied sexually unless I satisfy my partners.
Below I am going to do my best to give a snapshot into my mind and spirit, and I will try to explain who I am and what my sexual interests are. I am going to talk about things nobody else on the planet knows about, and I am excited to finally attempt to get this on paper. I am a very proud man, I am very confident in who I am and what I do and what I believe, and I have no reason to feel any inhibition toward letting the world know who I am. In a nutshell, I am a completely open bisexual male, looking to experience new sexual heights with men and women, and to provide such instinctual pleasures to men and women as well. I believe you will find that there isn’t much I won’t talk about as far as being out and open. I lost to perform oral on men for example, and penal sex is high on my list of things that I cannot do without experiencing, both giving and receiving a****l, whether with penis or strap on. I shall outline things about me, and I will also detail my thoughts about men and women, what I would like to do with, to, and for my love partners in life. I will talk about my diminishing limits, how wonderful it is to be at times submissive and gentle, I will talk about my love for cross-dressing, she males, gay and lesbian sex, and much more.
Though at this point I don’t feel I could be much more enlightened about my overall interaction with life, I have the wisdom to know that I am only scratching the surface of what there is for me to know about myself, about life, and about sexual experiences. I consider myself a love kitten, mainly because I yearn to love other people’s bodies in a very soft, warm, loving way. I like to lick an awful lot on people’s bodies, and my oral techniques, as well as my soft sensual touches, bring about incredibly wonderful, luxurious sexual experiences for my partners. Read on, to get to know my love for myself, for you, and for life. My whole body vibrates with positive energies at this moment as I write this and I am thinking about what I want to say, what I want to portray, and what I want to let you all know about me that has been kept secret my whole life. I am exposing myself in a way, and I love every single keystroke as I work more fully toward complete sexual liberation. My guess is a lot of you will understand what I’m saying. I hope you enjoy what you read and what you get to know about another human being. I hope what I say arouses you enough for you to contact me, because this is not an exercise in anything other than finding spiritually intact sexual partners who will be interested in equally giving and receiving such wondrous pleasures, peace, relief and release, and massive amounts of love.
Things about me
The men who I have given blow jobs to all told me that I did eight tremendous job, that they loved what I did and would always come back for more blow jobs. The first blow job I gave, I didn’t expect my man to cum as much as he did, so I didn’t swallow all his sperm and semen, but I sure did with every other guy whose cocks I put in my mouth. My desire to project nothing but love into the world transcends any inhibitions I might have about doing things like giving blow jobs, and it is quite noticeable in our culture that men who have sex with other men is not as acceptable as even perversions between men and women. My directive in life is to pleasure others, in their minds, bodies, insoles. I don’t live in the vacuous Ness that so many people live in sexually. I don’t have hangups. I do have limits, but short of something really disgusting or violent I accept the openness other people experience. And I enjoy watching people live out fantasies, and though some things are so painful, or unusual, in my own understanding of what they might be doing, I actually find myself enjoying watching how few limits other people have compared to mine. Knowing that there are are people out there who push limits to such extremes, and being able to watch such behavior on video because of the digital age, I find myself not judging anything anybody does. That to me is true freedom.
Another thing that I want to experience is anal sex with men and women. More about women and women with strap bonds outlined below. I started enjoying inserting Delta’s into my ass around the same time I started to give blow jobs. I have a story in my profile that outlines how I got into cross-dressing, and once I did that I started to have an awakened interest in other men’s bodies as well as my own. Using dildos on myself, I learned a lot about my body, and was delightfully surprised at how much I love touching myself, pleasuring myself, and even causing a certain level of pain. I got to the point where I was inserting about 8 inches of Adele do that had some girth and I enjoyed every bit of the pain that accompanied the pleasure and feeling of achievement somehow that I was able to engorge that toy inside my body. Now it is time to receive penises inside me anally, and that is part of what I am looking for going forward in the sexual revolution that I’m going through. Though safety is paramount in the area of having a no sex with men, a major fantasy of mine is to give and receive bareback. I can’t imagine how wondrous the feeling would be to have a man inside me, being able to feel skin against skin, and the feeling of warmth and satisfaction I would get knowing that it was through my provisions that a man would feel the pleasure being inside me and the intensity of the ejaculation inside me as well. I don’t know if you can actually feel the warmth of the sperm and semen being injected into the depths of your bowels, but just feeling the process, the movement of the penis as a man has orgasm inside me, that is something that at some point I absolutely have to experience. I will dream on in this category.
There are too many other sexual aspects related to men than I could possibly try to detail here. As an example, I would savor the experience of jerking off on a man’s genitals and then licking my own sperm off him as I pleasure him, and the same goes with ejaculating on a man’s ass hole and licking it off. I am incredibly turned on by the thought of sensually kissing men, passionate French tongue kisses, as I accept a man inside me anally. I would love to role-play that a man is my daddy, and I am his little boy or girl. Nothing I would ever do in real life, but such fetishes live a very healthy life within my mind. Along with all this, I would be remiss not to mention how much I want to take in the smells, the tastes, and the textures of men, their skin, their genitals, their ass holes, the flavors of their bodies, especially their sperm and semen. I love the thought of the control I have when I am sexually pleasing another man. It appears I talk about these things with men from the standpoint of being the one doing the pleasuring.
Understand that I am totally into mutual play, reciprocation. I am open to being loved and pleasured, as much if not more as I would anticipate being the one to pleasure others. I can imagine the thrill, excitement, the kinkiness I would experience giving Angel sex. That to I fantasize about doing bareback. Everything I talk about, and anything I do sexually, is an extension of my complete want to design sexual passions, fetishes, kinks, and fantasies. I am finding there are many men who feel the same way. In my observations, there are so many more men who are accepting of having sex with other men. With all the the porn videos we have online to watch, that she male porn, the gay porn and all the rest, we are truly being exposed, possibly by intention, to being accepting of alternative lifestyles. I fully embrace love and sex between and among anybody and everyone. Minus c***dren of course. Anything I talk about does not involve anything i*****l or truly unnecessary. What I talk about our things that should be and thankfully are acceptable between and among consenting adults.
I have advertised online for quite a while now, sometimes more often than would be deemed healthy, looking for people to experience sex with, and most of it has been trying to lure men into my sexual existence. I am a cross-dresser, and I have dressed all the way from very scantily looking like a woman, to being pretty much totally passable to where I would be very comfortable going out in public, and I know I would be seen as actually being a one. My happy medium, as can be seen easily from my profile, is somewhere right in the middle of this spectrum. I am a man, at this time I have no intention of losing all my body hair, or taking female hormones, although I have and I will in the future, and I have no intention of anything like having a sex change operation, nor would I inject myself out into the world trying to be a woman. That is where I deviate but a bit actually from other men who dress. Many men want to be seen as a woman. I don’t mind, I love seeing that in other men. But my interest, my existence is satisfied by the mindset I have to be a woman and to experience sex, and love, and some control pretending to be a woman. Looking at things that way is why you will see references throw my profile where I call myself soft, gentle, tender, and kitten and such things. In my mind, body, and spirit I actually live those things.
This is a very special sexual journey for me, and as selfish as it may sound, my cross-dressing in my ways of doing things are not as much done to gain attention from people who want to look at a man who looks very much like a woman, but rather the feeling I get of true love and warmth and confidence, and being able to use those things as a vehicle to find men who know that my intention is not to be a woman. There are many men who are finding me online and who tell me how beautiful I am even though I have chest and body hair sticking out of my bra and panties, they are equally empathic and they understand where I am in all of this. I am very feminine, I accept being called a sissy, and I love the thought of being submissive, and subjugated at times sexually, because of the place I live in. I am completely a woman inside when I am with men, the outside projection does not necessarily have to match that. It is the telepathic communication, the spiritual connections, that attract to certain men. And those men are the men I want to have sex with, make love with, fall in love with, have relationships with, whether sexual or not.
If you get to know me, you will discover how unique I am in this life. My whole life people have noticed that I was different, that I am different. I have always understood that I walked to the beat of a different drummer. That shows in music that I write and record. In music and the way I perform when I do live shows. In the sports I find interesting. In the bands that I enjoy watching in concert. I love a****ls. Being a non-hunter. My gentle touch. My kind smile. My thoughtfulness. My exceptional wit and intelligence. My obtuse sense of humor. My curiosity when looking at things. My ability to resolve issues and conflicts. The things I eat. The way I carry myself. I love who I am, throughout my whole existence, I don’t think I would change anything about myself right now. I do what I can to take care of myself, including nutritionally being intact, working out to an extent, I read a lot, I pay attention to history. I love to be gentle and kind to a****ls, to other people. I elicit smiles from everyone I say hello to and engage in conversation. I have a way of making people forget about their own lives, and people trust me and believe in me. In one of the most beautiful things I see in myself is that there is never ill intention when interacting with other people. Everything I do is genuine, honest, and deliberately peaceful. This is what I want to project out into the world of sex, love, touch. I am a man, and I am a woman. I have traits and characteristics of both. I am a delicious and beautiful person, I am not cocky at all, I am confident. I am sure about myself, and once you get to know me, if you do, I guarantee you will never be the same either. Not at all from a negative perspective, but rather having experienced a person like me who is absolutely free in every aspect of life. Someone who is giving, capable of giving on a level that I am. Someone who thinks about others more so than himself. Someone who is not satisfied unless a sexual partner is more than satisfied. Someone who knows things, how to do things that make others stop and wonder how it’s possible somebody could know the things I do. Sexual or not.
This understanding of myself, this love for myself, tentacles into the world around me in a very powerful, gentle, sincere way. I do nothing but love, love life, love all living things. I want to make bad good. I want to make lonely fulfilled. I want to make horny satisfied. I want to make unsure sure. I want to turn fear into peace. And all I need to do is keep working toward spiritual guidance in finding other people in my life who will be the same, or believe in the same things, those who will want to engage me as I am, for who I am. This is a big part of why I am writing this documentary, so that I can expose myself is who I am. There are many millions of people who are online making profiles on these sexual porn websites. Many complaints we come across from people who say that people on these websites are bull ship. Many, if not most, are not necessarily here to enjoy sex with others. I’m not about to try to judge that, as I know I have done that in the past. But now is different. I will meet truly sensitive, beautiful, people who have such immense love inside themselves as well. I am establishing incredibly healthy relationships with others. I can smell, taste, and feel the sexual energy that is building around those who are going to get me to know me on a sexual level. And that is going to be a remarkable thing to be involved with.
About women
I have had the misfortune, or may be more accurately the fortune, of not having any female interaction for the past eight years. I explain in one of my stories in this profile about a terrible situation I had that involved needing to have a hip replacement. Not getting into details here, but add in a sexless marriage, a divorce, health issues that affected people around me, and other life things, and I ended up not having sex with women for just about eight years now. Once I got into cross-dressing about five years ago, not only did the feeling of women’s clothes my body, the feelings I had and emotions experienced by so-called getting in tune with my female side, videotaping myself dressed as a woman, funking myself with dill the, taking pictures of myself dressed, this all lead to a very important sexual liberation that opened my mind to how beautiful it is to include men in my sexual life. Much of my focus over the last five years or so, is Ben along the lines of understanding my feelings toward men, having sex with men, looking very intently at their bodies, movements on video, understanding things that I enjoy sexually, understanding things that bring me pleasure, and empathically relating to projecting that on two men. My feminine side allows me to fully embrace the wonders of love and sex with men, and I find the male body is beautiful as a woman’s. Now that I feel I have, for lack of a better way to put it, achieved equality in my sexual interests in both sexes, I am very noticeably missing the touch, the smell, the feel, the taste, of women. Now that I know how much I enjoy men, and I fully embrace all sexual intention as long as it involves a certain level of love and pleasure, even perversion and kink in pain, I truly miss the female form. And that is going to stop. I control my life, and most everything in it. Loving women, their minds, bodies, and souls, is most definitely on my agenda.
I have always marveled about women, especially their minds. Men and women obviously don’t do things the same way, they don’t think the same way. We all know this. There is no need to subjectively scrutinize these facts, has everybody lives in their own spectrums of tolerances, needs, wants, fears, thoughts, everything. Women’s bodies are so unique, and different to the point where we men struggle to try to figure some things out, and their bodies are so beautiful and truly should be worshiped on the level I’m talking about. My approach with women throughout my life has always been from the standpoint of wanting to satisfy them. I’ve been with women who wanted to satisfy me equally if not more, and though I think initially that was an unusual thing to experience for me, it became part of my makeup, and is truly part of my makeup now. I have no problem with women who like to take control, and it can be seen in the media, educational opportunities, career paths, and yes, in porn, women are incredibly assertive, confident, and not afraid to be who they are, take what they want, and experience things that probably for a long time for only things men were looked at and accepted doing. It is time for a mature man like me to get back out and start experiencing such a remarkable liberation of the female mind, body, and spirit. I admire women to such an incredible depth, I completely welcome their equality, if not dominance, in our culture, schools, politics, and areas like sex and porn. I don’t think I have ever been capable of looking at women as subjects, has less than equals, and I sure feel that way now.
It is tantalizing to live in this day and age, having profiles on websites like this, where people want to experience being dominant and/or submissive. Seeing women in both roles is scintillating as could ever be imagined. I find women who have a dominant mindset exceptionally attractive. I come in no doubt, would interface with dominant women as a subject, a submissive, a vassal to be used and subjected to pain, and doing kinky sexual things. To be tied, bound, whipped, deprived, caged. I think it would be equally arousing to be with women who wanted to be submissive to me. Though that is a role I never naturally tended toward throughout my life, truly considering women equals and not having the open sexual mindset that I have now, I could relish in experiences that entailed my being the dominant power. I think it would be luscious to subjugate women. Not because I could possibly have a mindset in life that that kind of belief was how women should be treated and looked at, but rather because of these wonderful revolutionary sexual things we are all being exposed to and wanting to emulate.
My sex with women throughout my life was relatively vanilla. I have thoroughly enjoyed vanilla in most situations. Before the whole digital revolution, especially as a k** growing up in a small town where sexual media things were quite scant, vanilla just seemed to be the thing to do. Back then I didn’t have role models, mentors who taught me about the facts of life other than having pretty standard intercourse. It took me a long time in my life before I started to understand people’s minds, how different the mines are between men and women, how crazy we all can be, how we all experience fantasies in our minds, how big the world is. Back when I was in college, after partying a bit I found myself self sucking. I’ve come across videos of young men sucking on themselves recently, coming in their own mouths like I did. I remember waking up the following mornings and feeling guilt about what I had done. When I was doing it, sucking myself, it felt wonderful and natural and I just did it. But the guilt room and it, but I always had the seeds of doing that in my subconscious. If you read my story about how I became bisexual, which started with a relative of mine in my touching of each other on our Cox many years ago, and inserting carrots into my ass around the same time I was starting to self suck, all this seeds were put in place for me to end up along the path recently of finding such relative perversions so attractive now when I watch porn online.
Now I see women inserting things into themselves, which has brought on a whole new meaning in understanding women, the sameness and yet differences women experience as opposed to us men. I love how perverted and kinky women can be. And I am going to experience many of the things women like to do, but this time I have a much more open mind at this point in my life than I would’ve had one involving myself sexually with women, and I am a very different person, much more perverted and kinky than I could ever have imagined at this point. No differently than I outlined above that I want to lick men’s ass holes, I want to do the same with women. And I think it would be wonderful to have women lick me anally as well. I would love to be thought in the ass by women wearing strap ponds. I would love to watch women masturbate, using banal toys, and I actually would find it indescribably attractive to be with women who were mindfully promiscuous, and I would enjoy watching my mate have sexual relations in front of me with other men and women.
I never got to do a threesome with two women. I had a very awkward threesome with a friend of mine and a woman he knew in the back of my mother’s station wagon when we were in high school. It was very awkward, but I enjoyed it, but I think the artist about it was I was talking her from behind as she was sucking my friend. Being behind her I could see what was going on with the two of them, and I was seeing cock close-up for one of the first times and I wasn’t sure how I felt about that. Fast forward through life without any threesomes, or even really any kink or perversion or fantasy or fetish, and here I am understanding I am about to embark on the most wonderful sexual enlightenment. I could imagine. And most of this I believe is going to be my reconnecting with women. Having been away from situations where I had sex with women, I miss important things like tender sensual French kisses, smelling, nuzzling, tasting women’s breasts, the soft touch of a female, the beauty of their bodies, I especially miss the scent the look the feel and the flavor of orally pleasuring. I don’t think there has ever been a time in my life when I was with a woman sexually where my first desire and probably actually feeling of obligation was to go down and lick a woman’s pussy. I so enjoy that. I am quite good at it. I can imagine how wonderful sex and love with women is going to be soon. And it will happen soon. Women are incredible. And to be able to openly, genuinely, sincerely respect, admire, and view women as the incredible beings they are, is setting a path of renewed healthy relational and sexual interaction, with peace, warmth, love, pleasure, and lots of smiles.
Somehow I think having sexual relations with women again might bring me to the point of being less interested in things like cross-dressing and being feminine, but you never know. A perfect world for me relative to what I’m talking about here, would be for me to find a woman, or women, who would be open to my being who I am, and understanding that the reciprocal respect for her or them would be nothing but assured. It would be a dream to find a woman who was bisexual as well, who would want to share me with other women and men as well is wanting me to share her or them with other men and women. As I mentioned above, what I say everywhere in this profile, it is implicitly understood that I have an intensely deep understanding of how unsafe sexual practices are to be avoided, that hygiene is more than important, and I don’t approach this appearance of wanting to be sexually promiscuous myself as being anything other than being incredibly mindful, thoughtful, calculating, careful. I have had online profiles for a number of years, and I actually have yet to meet anybody from online. I am a very discerning guy, and it is within our power to keep ourselves in safe and controlled situations where we don’t harm others and we don’t get harmed ourselves. This is not about carelessly letting go of inhibitions, but rather about indulging in the most beautiful things in the world but with mindfulness, planning, discernment.
Enough already
I have written quite a bit so far here, and for anybody this is a relatively minuscule amount to have written. It is a lot for an online profile, but there’s so many other things we all think about, and I am no exception. I have a listing below in my profile that will give a reader more information about who I am, what my interests are, and even some fantasies and fetishes I have. In essence, I am a proud to be out bisexual male, looking for beautiful, sincere people who want to engage in at least a little more than just sexual trysts. We don’t have to become best friends, we don’t even have to get to know each other depending on the situation. I don’t know that somebody who is dominant would necessarily want to get to know a person they are subjugating. My mind is open to many more things then not, and I will entertain anyone about anything. But there will be information exchanged depending on situations that will either provide both of us with a comfort level or not. And I assure anybody that any kind of weight that ensues before we meet and have sex will be worth the wait to both of us.
I am excited about meeting many of you, and living out dreams of all kinds of things sexual. I hope I have given you readers an idea of who and what I am. What I like. What I am looking for. What I want to do to, with, and for other lovers. I am a man and I am a woman, I love to cross-dress, I am openly bisexual, I admit I love giving blow jobs, I admit I am insanely desirous of having a no sex with men and women, I enjoy fantasizing about so many things that are supposedly, yet hypocritically, judged as being taboo in our cultures. If you read some of my items below, as I mentioned, you will get more of an idea of where my mind is. I am perfectly capable of very deep and dark thought and actions, controlled to the point of preserving health and legality, but nonetheless there is potential for things that stretch limits.
I am real, I live in Pinellas County Florida, and I am hoping to hear from many of you. Even if you are not necessarily looking for sex and relationships, I am open to speaking on the phone, through email, and online here. I am an open person with nothing to hide. So there is no reason not to contact me. I love all of you, and have a profound want for all of you to live a healthy, positively vibrational, erotic day today. And if you need it, I bet I can make you smile.
Kisses.
I considered myself straight for most of my life. Up until about five years ago, my main focus sexually was on experiences with women. I was fairly fortunate as a young man to have been relatively attractive, and I definitely had my share of some absolutely beautiful women, and my memories are quite fond, and I have come to totally appreciate the female body, the female mind, and the female spirit. As so much as changed throughout my lifetime, I am thrilled to see women so confident, so open, so much more aggressive in their pursuits, whether sexually, career oriented, and I so look forward to interacting on a mindful, intense, and erotic way that surpasses anything I have ever done before, let alone thought of doing let alone wanted to do. Or even expected to do.
I have stories and blogs on this website that describe things about me that have happened over the course of maybe 5 to 8 years. During that time I discovered very deeply my bisexuality, that I love cross-dressing, that I love men and men’s bodies, that I love the penis and testicles, and most unexpectedly I love men’s asses. I never thought I would have sex with men in any way shape or form. I find it now not only acceptable, but truly an imperative to engage in further. I say that because about five years ago I started giving oral sex to men, and I received some to, but I was mostly on a path of wanting to pleasure man. That is a big part of who I am right now, I want to pleasure other people in so many ways. I love performing oral on both men and women, I want to experience licking women’s and men’s ass holes, I want to be talked in the ass, and I want to live out fantasies, fetishes, kinks and perversions just like anybody else.
I am not here for any reason other than I am pursuing meeting clean, decent people for either friendship and/or sexual relations. I am a very clean, warm, gentle bisexual male, I am very thoughtful and I am considered and empathic. As I love people’s bodies, whether with my hands, fingers, lips, tongue, mouth and throat, or even with my penis, I am always in tune with peoples moans, movements, body postures, etc. What I find truly erotic is the fact that I am a male and I am enjoying making love with other men. That puts me in a situation, since I know how things feel as a male sexually, I know may be more fully how to love of man’s bodies, especially with my mouth, then others and women might know how to do. It is my utmost desire and obligation to pleasure others, and I will not be satisfied sexually unless I satisfy my partners.
Below I am going to do my best to give a snapshot into my mind and spirit, and I will try to explain who I am and what my sexual interests are. I am going to talk about things nobody else on the planet knows about, and I am excited to finally attempt to get this on paper. I am a very proud man, I am very confident in who I am and what I do and what I believe, and I have no reason to feel any inhibition toward letting the world know who I am. In a nutshell, I am a completely open bisexual male, looking to experience new sexual heights with men and women, and to provide such instinctual pleasures to men and women as well. I believe you will find that there isn’t much I won’t talk about as far as being out and open. I lost to perform oral on men for example, and penal sex is high on my list of things that I cannot do without experiencing, both giving and receiving a****l, whether with penis or strap on. I shall outline things about me, and I will also detail my thoughts about men and women, what I would like to do with, to, and for my love partners in life. I will talk about my diminishing limits, how wonderful it is to be at times submissive and gentle, I will talk about my love for cross-dressing, she males, gay and lesbian sex, and much more.
Though at this point I don’t feel I could be much more enlightened about my overall interaction with life, I have the wisdom to know that I am only scratching the surface of what there is for me to know about myself, about life, and about sexual experiences. I consider myself a love kitten, mainly because I yearn to love other people’s bodies in a very soft, warm, loving way. I like to lick an awful lot on people’s bodies, and my oral techniques, as well as my soft sensual touches, bring about incredibly wonderful, luxurious sexual experiences for my partners. Read on, to get to know my love for myself, for you, and for life. My whole body vibrates with positive energies at this moment as I write this and I am thinking about what I want to say, what I want to portray, and what I want to let you all know about me that has been kept secret my whole life. I am exposing myself in a way, and I love every single keystroke as I work more fully toward complete sexual liberation. My guess is a lot of you will understand what I’m saying. I hope you enjoy what you read and what you get to know about another human being. I hope what I say arouses you enough for you to contact me, because this is not an exercise in anything other than finding spiritually intact sexual partners who will be interested in equally giving and receiving such wondrous pleasures, peace, relief and release, and massive amounts of love.
Things about me
The men who I have given blow jobs to all told me that I did eight tremendous job, that they loved what I did and would always come back for more blow jobs. The first blow job I gave, I didn’t expect my man to cum as much as he did, so I didn’t swallow all his sperm and semen, but I sure did with every other guy whose cocks I put in my mouth. My desire to project nothing but love into the world transcends any inhibitions I might have about doing things like giving blow jobs, and it is quite noticeable in our culture that men who have sex with other men is not as acceptable as even perversions between men and women. My directive in life is to pleasure others, in their minds, bodies, insoles. I don’t live in the vacuous Ness that so many people live in sexually. I don’t have hangups. I do have limits, but short of something really disgusting or violent I accept the openness other people experience. And I enjoy watching people live out fantasies, and though some things are so painful, or unusual, in my own understanding of what they might be doing, I actually find myself enjoying watching how few limits other people have compared to mine. Knowing that there are are people out there who push limits to such extremes, and being able to watch such behavior on video because of the digital age, I find myself not judging anything anybody does. That to me is true freedom.
Another thing that I want to experience is anal sex with men and women. More about women and women with strap bonds outlined below. I started enjoying inserting Delta’s into my ass around the same time I started to give blow jobs. I have a story in my profile that outlines how I got into cross-dressing, and once I did that I started to have an awakened interest in other men’s bodies as well as my own. Using dildos on myself, I learned a lot about my body, and was delightfully surprised at how much I love touching myself, pleasuring myself, and even causing a certain level of pain. I got to the point where I was inserting about 8 inches of Adele do that had some girth and I enjoyed every bit of the pain that accompanied the pleasure and feeling of achievement somehow that I was able to engorge that toy inside my body. Now it is time to receive penises inside me anally, and that is part of what I am looking for going forward in the sexual revolution that I’m going through. Though safety is paramount in the area of having a no sex with men, a major fantasy of mine is to give and receive bareback. I can’t imagine how wondrous the feeling would be to have a man inside me, being able to feel skin against skin, and the feeling of warmth and satisfaction I would get knowing that it was through my provisions that a man would feel the pleasure being inside me and the intensity of the ejaculation inside me as well. I don’t know if you can actually feel the warmth of the sperm and semen being injected into the depths of your bowels, but just feeling the process, the movement of the penis as a man has orgasm inside me, that is something that at some point I absolutely have to experience. I will dream on in this category.
There are too many other sexual aspects related to men than I could possibly try to detail here. As an example, I would savor the experience of jerking off on a man’s genitals and then licking my own sperm off him as I pleasure him, and the same goes with ejaculating on a man’s ass hole and licking it off. I am incredibly turned on by the thought of sensually kissing men, passionate French tongue kisses, as I accept a man inside me anally. I would love to role-play that a man is my daddy, and I am his little boy or girl. Nothing I would ever do in real life, but such fetishes live a very healthy life within my mind. Along with all this, I would be remiss not to mention how much I want to take in the smells, the tastes, and the textures of men, their skin, their genitals, their ass holes, the flavors of their bodies, especially their sperm and semen. I love the thought of the control I have when I am sexually pleasing another man. It appears I talk about these things with men from the standpoint of being the one doing the pleasuring.
Understand that I am totally into mutual play, reciprocation. I am open to being loved and pleasured, as much if not more as I would anticipate being the one to pleasure others. I can imagine the thrill, excitement, the kinkiness I would experience giving Angel sex. That to I fantasize about doing bareback. Everything I talk about, and anything I do sexually, is an extension of my complete want to design sexual passions, fetishes, kinks, and fantasies. I am finding there are many men who feel the same way. In my observations, there are so many more men who are accepting of having sex with other men. With all the the porn videos we have online to watch, that she male porn, the gay porn and all the rest, we are truly being exposed, possibly by intention, to being accepting of alternative lifestyles. I fully embrace love and sex between and among anybody and everyone. Minus c***dren of course. Anything I talk about does not involve anything i*****l or truly unnecessary. What I talk about our things that should be and thankfully are acceptable between and among consenting adults.
I have advertised online for quite a while now, sometimes more often than would be deemed healthy, looking for people to experience sex with, and most of it has been trying to lure men into my sexual existence. I am a cross-dresser, and I have dressed all the way from very scantily looking like a woman, to being pretty much totally passable to where I would be very comfortable going out in public, and I know I would be seen as actually being a one. My happy medium, as can be seen easily from my profile, is somewhere right in the middle of this spectrum. I am a man, at this time I have no intention of losing all my body hair, or taking female hormones, although I have and I will in the future, and I have no intention of anything like having a sex change operation, nor would I inject myself out into the world trying to be a woman. That is where I deviate but a bit actually from other men who dress. Many men want to be seen as a woman. I don’t mind, I love seeing that in other men. But my interest, my existence is satisfied by the mindset I have to be a woman and to experience sex, and love, and some control pretending to be a woman. Looking at things that way is why you will see references throw my profile where I call myself soft, gentle, tender, and kitten and such things. In my mind, body, and spirit I actually live those things.
This is a very special sexual journey for me, and as selfish as it may sound, my cross-dressing in my ways of doing things are not as much done to gain attention from people who want to look at a man who looks very much like a woman, but rather the feeling I get of true love and warmth and confidence, and being able to use those things as a vehicle to find men who know that my intention is not to be a woman. There are many men who are finding me online and who tell me how beautiful I am even though I have chest and body hair sticking out of my bra and panties, they are equally empathic and they understand where I am in all of this. I am very feminine, I accept being called a sissy, and I love the thought of being submissive, and subjugated at times sexually, because of the place I live in. I am completely a woman inside when I am with men, the outside projection does not necessarily have to match that. It is the telepathic communication, the spiritual connections, that attract to certain men. And those men are the men I want to have sex with, make love with, fall in love with, have relationships with, whether sexual or not.
If you get to know me, you will discover how unique I am in this life. My whole life people have noticed that I was different, that I am different. I have always understood that I walked to the beat of a different drummer. That shows in music that I write and record. In music and the way I perform when I do live shows. In the sports I find interesting. In the bands that I enjoy watching in concert. I love a****ls. Being a non-hunter. My gentle touch. My kind smile. My thoughtfulness. My exceptional wit and intelligence. My obtuse sense of humor. My curiosity when looking at things. My ability to resolve issues and conflicts. The things I eat. The way I carry myself. I love who I am, throughout my whole existence, I don’t think I would change anything about myself right now. I do what I can to take care of myself, including nutritionally being intact, working out to an extent, I read a lot, I pay attention to history. I love to be gentle and kind to a****ls, to other people. I elicit smiles from everyone I say hello to and engage in conversation. I have a way of making people forget about their own lives, and people trust me and believe in me. In one of the most beautiful things I see in myself is that there is never ill intention when interacting with other people. Everything I do is genuine, honest, and deliberately peaceful. This is what I want to project out into the world of sex, love, touch. I am a man, and I am a woman. I have traits and characteristics of both. I am a delicious and beautiful person, I am not cocky at all, I am confident. I am sure about myself, and once you get to know me, if you do, I guarantee you will never be the same either. Not at all from a negative perspective, but rather having experienced a person like me who is absolutely free in every aspect of life. Someone who is giving, capable of giving on a level that I am. Someone who thinks about others more so than himself. Someone who is not satisfied unless a sexual partner is more than satisfied. Someone who knows things, how to do things that make others stop and wonder how it’s possible somebody could know the things I do. Sexual or not.
This understanding of myself, this love for myself, tentacles into the world around me in a very powerful, gentle, sincere way. I do nothing but love, love life, love all living things. I want to make bad good. I want to make lonely fulfilled. I want to make horny satisfied. I want to make unsure sure. I want to turn fear into peace. And all I need to do is keep working toward spiritual guidance in finding other people in my life who will be the same, or believe in the same things, those who will want to engage me as I am, for who I am. This is a big part of why I am writing this documentary, so that I can expose myself is who I am. There are many millions of people who are online making profiles on these sexual porn websites. Many complaints we come across from people who say that people on these websites are bull ship. Many, if not most, are not necessarily here to enjoy sex with others. I’m not about to try to judge that, as I know I have done that in the past. But now is different. I will meet truly sensitive, beautiful, people who have such immense love inside themselves as well. I am establishing incredibly healthy relationships with others. I can smell, taste, and feel the sexual energy that is building around those who are going to get me to know me on a sexual level. And that is going to be a remarkable thing to be involved with.
About women
I have had the misfortune, or may be more accurately the fortune, of not having any female interaction for the past eight years. I explain in one of my stories in this profile about a terrible situation I had that involved needing to have a hip replacement. Not getting into details here, but add in a sexless marriage, a divorce, health issues that affected people around me, and other life things, and I ended up not having sex with women for just about eight years now. Once I got into cross-dressing about five years ago, not only did the feeling of women’s clothes my body, the feelings I had and emotions experienced by so-called getting in tune with my female side, videotaping myself dressed as a woman, funking myself with dill the, taking pictures of myself dressed, this all lead to a very important sexual liberation that opened my mind to how beautiful it is to include men in my sexual life. Much of my focus over the last five years or so, is Ben along the lines of understanding my feelings toward men, having sex with men, looking very intently at their bodies, movements on video, understanding things that I enjoy sexually, understanding things that bring me pleasure, and empathically relating to projecting that on two men. My feminine side allows me to fully embrace the wonders of love and sex with men, and I find the male body is beautiful as a woman’s. Now that I feel I have, for lack of a better way to put it, achieved equality in my sexual interests in both sexes, I am very noticeably missing the touch, the smell, the feel, the taste, of women. Now that I know how much I enjoy men, and I fully embrace all sexual intention as long as it involves a certain level of love and pleasure, even perversion and kink in pain, I truly miss the female form. And that is going to stop. I control my life, and most everything in it. Loving women, their minds, bodies, and souls, is most definitely on my agenda.
I have always marveled about women, especially their minds. Men and women obviously don’t do things the same way, they don’t think the same way. We all know this. There is no need to subjectively scrutinize these facts, has everybody lives in their own spectrums of tolerances, needs, wants, fears, thoughts, everything. Women’s bodies are so unique, and different to the point where we men struggle to try to figure some things out, and their bodies are so beautiful and truly should be worshiped on the level I’m talking about. My approach with women throughout my life has always been from the standpoint of wanting to satisfy them. I’ve been with women who wanted to satisfy me equally if not more, and though I think initially that was an unusual thing to experience for me, it became part of my makeup, and is truly part of my makeup now. I have no problem with women who like to take control, and it can be seen in the media, educational opportunities, career paths, and yes, in porn, women are incredibly assertive, confident, and not afraid to be who they are, take what they want, and experience things that probably for a long time for only things men were looked at and accepted doing. It is time for a mature man like me to get back out and start experiencing such a remarkable liberation of the female mind, body, and spirit. I admire women to such an incredible depth, I completely welcome their equality, if not dominance, in our culture, schools, politics, and areas like sex and porn. I don’t think I have ever been capable of looking at women as subjects, has less than equals, and I sure feel that way now.
It is tantalizing to live in this day and age, having profiles on websites like this, where people want to experience being dominant and/or submissive. Seeing women in both roles is scintillating as could ever be imagined. I find women who have a dominant mindset exceptionally attractive. I come in no doubt, would interface with dominant women as a subject, a submissive, a vassal to be used and subjected to pain, and doing kinky sexual things. To be tied, bound, whipped, deprived, caged. I think it would be equally arousing to be with women who wanted to be submissive to me. Though that is a role I never naturally tended toward throughout my life, truly considering women equals and not having the open sexual mindset that I have now, I could relish in experiences that entailed my being the dominant power. I think it would be luscious to subjugate women. Not because I could possibly have a mindset in life that that kind of belief was how women should be treated and looked at, but rather because of these wonderful revolutionary sexual things we are all being exposed to and wanting to emulate.
My sex with women throughout my life was relatively vanilla. I have thoroughly enjoyed vanilla in most situations. Before the whole digital revolution, especially as a k** growing up in a small town where sexual media things were quite scant, vanilla just seemed to be the thing to do. Back then I didn’t have role models, mentors who taught me about the facts of life other than having pretty standard intercourse. It took me a long time in my life before I started to understand people’s minds, how different the mines are between men and women, how crazy we all can be, how we all experience fantasies in our minds, how big the world is. Back when I was in college, after partying a bit I found myself self sucking. I’ve come across videos of young men sucking on themselves recently, coming in their own mouths like I did. I remember waking up the following mornings and feeling guilt about what I had done. When I was doing it, sucking myself, it felt wonderful and natural and I just did it. But the guilt room and it, but I always had the seeds of doing that in my subconscious. If you read my story about how I became bisexual, which started with a relative of mine in my touching of each other on our Cox many years ago, and inserting carrots into my ass around the same time I was starting to self suck, all this seeds were put in place for me to end up along the path recently of finding such relative perversions so attractive now when I watch porn online.
Now I see women inserting things into themselves, which has brought on a whole new meaning in understanding women, the sameness and yet differences women experience as opposed to us men. I love how perverted and kinky women can be. And I am going to experience many of the things women like to do, but this time I have a much more open mind at this point in my life than I would’ve had one involving myself sexually with women, and I am a very different person, much more perverted and kinky than I could ever have imagined at this point. No differently than I outlined above that I want to lick men’s ass holes, I want to do the same with women. And I think it would be wonderful to have women lick me anally as well. I would love to be thought in the ass by women wearing strap ponds. I would love to watch women masturbate, using banal toys, and I actually would find it indescribably attractive to be with women who were mindfully promiscuous, and I would enjoy watching my mate have sexual relations in front of me with other men and women.
I never got to do a threesome with two women. I had a very awkward threesome with a friend of mine and a woman he knew in the back of my mother’s station wagon when we were in high school. It was very awkward, but I enjoyed it, but I think the artist about it was I was talking her from behind as she was sucking my friend. Being behind her I could see what was going on with the two of them, and I was seeing cock close-up for one of the first times and I wasn’t sure how I felt about that. Fast forward through life without any threesomes, or even really any kink or perversion or fantasy or fetish, and here I am understanding I am about to embark on the most wonderful sexual enlightenment. I could imagine. And most of this I believe is going to be my reconnecting with women. Having been away from situations where I had sex with women, I miss important things like tender sensual French kisses, smelling, nuzzling, tasting women’s breasts, the soft touch of a female, the beauty of their bodies, I especially miss the scent the look the feel and the flavor of orally pleasuring. I don’t think there has ever been a time in my life when I was with a woman sexually where my first desire and probably actually feeling of obligation was to go down and lick a woman’s pussy. I so enjoy that. I am quite good at it. I can imagine how wonderful sex and love with women is going to be soon. And it will happen soon. Women are incredible. And to be able to openly, genuinely, sincerely respect, admire, and view women as the incredible beings they are, is setting a path of renewed healthy relational and sexual interaction, with peace, warmth, love, pleasure, and lots of smiles.
Somehow I think having sexual relations with women again might bring me to the point of being less interested in things like cross-dressing and being feminine, but you never know. A perfect world for me relative to what I’m talking about here, would be for me to find a woman, or women, who would be open to my being who I am, and understanding that the reciprocal respect for her or them would be nothing but assured. It would be a dream to find a woman who was bisexual as well, who would want to share me with other women and men as well is wanting me to share her or them with other men and women. As I mentioned above, what I say everywhere in this profile, it is implicitly understood that I have an intensely deep understanding of how unsafe sexual practices are to be avoided, that hygiene is more than important, and I don’t approach this appearance of wanting to be sexually promiscuous myself as being anything other than being incredibly mindful, thoughtful, calculating, careful. I have had online profiles for a number of years, and I actually have yet to meet anybody from online. I am a very discerning guy, and it is within our power to keep ourselves in safe and controlled situations where we don’t harm others and we don’t get harmed ourselves. This is not about carelessly letting go of inhibitions, but rather about indulging in the most beautiful things in the world but with mindfulness, planning, discernment.
Enough already
I have written quite a bit so far here, and for anybody this is a relatively minuscule amount to have written. It is a lot for an online profile, but there’s so many other things we all think about, and I am no exception. I have a listing below in my profile that will give a reader more information about who I am, what my interests are, and even some fantasies and fetishes I have. In essence, I am a proud to be out bisexual male, looking for beautiful, sincere people who want to engage in at least a little more than just sexual trysts. We don’t have to become best friends, we don’t even have to get to know each other depending on the situation. I don’t know that somebody who is dominant would necessarily want to get to know a person they are subjugating. My mind is open to many more things then not, and I will entertain anyone about anything. But there will be information exchanged depending on situations that will either provide both of us with a comfort level or not. And I assure anybody that any kind of weight that ensues before we meet and have sex will be worth the wait to both of us.
I am excited about meeting many of you, and living out dreams of all kinds of things sexual. I hope I have given you readers an idea of who and what I am. What I like. What I am looking for. What I want to do to, with, and for other lovers. I am a man and I am a woman, I love to cross-dress, I am openly bisexual, I admit I love giving blow jobs, I admit I am insanely desirous of having a no sex with men and women, I enjoy fantasizing about so many things that are supposedly, yet hypocritically, judged as being taboo in our cultures. If you read some of my items below, as I mentioned, you will get more of an idea of where my mind is. I am perfectly capable of very deep and dark thought and actions, controlled to the point of preserving health and legality, but nonetheless there is potential for things that stretch limits.
I am real, I live in Pinellas County Florida, and I am hoping to hear from many of you. Even if you are not necessarily looking for sex and relationships, I am open to speaking on the phone, through email, and online here. I am an open person with nothing to hide. So there is no reason not to contact me. I love all of you, and have a profound want for all of you to live a healthy, positively vibrational, erotic day today. And if you need it, I bet I can make you smile.
Kisses.
3 years ago